MOMENTS

Joel Charles Snell

Everybody has them. Some moments and events stand out and one remembers them, the rest of their lives. That is what this little book is about.

So we begin.

*I am at a party and have had only a few drinks. I am talking to someone about an important topic. Have the right tone in my voice and can speak very clearly and intelligently. It is an incredible situation. Further, a person who is sitting next to me is listening. She is extremely attractive. I still think about her day after day. The interaction is short of incredible. My problem with her is that I have been with her at few times alone and I am incredibly shy.

She makes some moves and I have not been drinking. With a drink all those reservations instantly disappear. Why? When I was a kid I was beaten by my father for playing “doctor and nurse.” My brother is beaten as he was with me and he was screaming in the next room. I could hear it. I lay on my bed waiting. A customer of my father’s stops by and they are talking out in the front of the house. The window is open and their interaction comes into my room. Moment for moment I am shaking and totally nude. My dad finally comes to my room and the whipping is incredibly painful. Those emotions drift into the future time after time. With alcohol I usually do the right thing. That is sexual outer course or abstinence plus. With other young ladies and I am with them, I ask them what they like if they happen into a situation like that.

These conversations become very serious and detailed because no other males has asked them my questions of which I am not judgmental. So? I have not had a drink in 50 years. Further, I have even had psychotherapy about this situation. It has not worked. The young ladies were helpful and I so want to thank them, but it is time to move on. The event that I described happened about 70 years ago. I am 82. I would like to talk with you again.